I woke up to my phone ringing; my body ached so badly from sleeping on the floor. I heard my phone ring again, with my eyes still half way closed I looked at the phone to see the caller; I was amazed that Ada would be calling me, perhaps she has heard the story too. I didn’t want anyone telling me how much I messed up so I dropped it and staggered to lie on my bed.
She kept calling and I had no choice but to pick. I was still very sleepy and the pain in my body was terrible.
‘Hello’ I said in a sleepy voice
‘Damilola, where is Tobi?’ Wait, she of all persons should know she shouldn’t be asking me about Tobi. We were not in good terms and she knew it so why was she asking.
‘He told me he was coming over to your place this morning, that he had an appointment with your mother’.
So all of a sudden Tobi and my mum were best friends. Why was she calling me? After all she had mum’s number as well as Tobi’s.
‘Okay, so why are you calling me?’
‘I am by the door come and open it’
By the door? Why was she by the door? Could she go back to her house? Why was everyone poke nosing into my business? Was it that they didn’t have things going on in their lives or they were just particularly interested in mine?
I dropped the call and found my way downstairs to open the door. The light rays were blinding, she walked so hurriedly almost pushing me down.
‘They are not back yet?’ she said looking very bothered.
Back from where? No one told me about any appointment so why was she disturbing me about it? Last I checked mum and Tobi now discuss me behind my back, if she needed information about both of them I was the last person to ask.
I sat down less bothered, ‘I don’t know anything about anything, why don’t you call them?’
She looked at me like she was surprised at my attitude.
‘What? How is it my business that my mum and my so called best friend went out to discuss me again?’
‘You are just so lucky Tobi is head over heels for you. Do you know Tobi and mummy went out this morning to deal with Kola?’
Deal with Kola? Are these ones dumb or something? What’s their business? I could handle it, why on earth did they feel the need to not mind their business? Honestly I was still less bothered, how was it my fault? I didn’t send them there.
‘You are still not bothered? What if something bad happened to them?’ she asked still bothered.
‘But you know Kola’s house, why are you here if you are so bothered?
‘You are just very pathetic, I am leaving’ she said as she walked out
I couldn’t help but hiss, why was she trying to make me feel evil? Since they didn’t want to mind their business they should deal with it themselves. I found it even ridiculous; they left the comfort of their houses to deal with Kola.
I was watching the television when the house keeper ran to open the door; mummy and Tobi walked in looking very exhausted, I wanted to laugh they both looked like clowns.
I saw the way Tobi looked at me like he judged me, like I created this mess and I was acting like I cared less, like they were doing me a favour. Before he could utter any word I left the sitting room. I hated Tobi, yes I created this mess but who was he to judge me? Why were they acting like they would have done things differently? I could take care of myself and I didn’t need any of them in my business. Why was it difficult for them to understand?
‘Dami!’ I heard Tobi call me.
‘Don’t you dare walk out on me, come back here!’ I heard him shout on top of his voice. I saw mum sit and stare at both of us act this drama.
I walked into my room and slammed the door behind me. He pushed it open almost removing the door from the wall.
‘What is wrong with you? Who do you even think you are? Everyone is running helter skelter for you and all you do is act like an idiot?’ I could see fire in his eyes, I am serious. Tobi has never ever spoken to me like this before, I could be very annoying but I realized I had pushed it too far. `1
‘Do you know what mum and I have been through today? Just because of you? Just because you act like the world revolves around you? I shouldn’t be bothered but I am because I love you and you act like I am a pest?...’
I was about to say I don’t care when he shouted some more
‘You don’t care right? You don’t care about anybody but yourself, you are just too self-centred, and everything must be about you. I wasted most part of my life thinking you would change, that maybe you would grow up but you can never change…’
He looked at me like he wanted to crush everything in me; like if he was given the chance he would crush me into bits.
I was still shut when he held me looking into my eyes, he stared for so long even I was confused, shook his head and left in anger. I could hear his car as he drove out.
I sat on the bed holding myself and for the first time since this whole issue I cried, I cried so hard because the only person I knew had my back all day everyday was gone.
Mummy walked in and met me crying had compassion on me and hugged me ‘Damilola, this boy loves you and I know you do too, what’s wrong with you? Why are you pushing him away again?’
I couldn’t reply her, I kept crying. Why was love difficult for me? Why couldn’t I just fall in love and have a happy ever after life. Was I this bad? Did I really treat Tobi this bad that he had to crush my spirit? I cried, wept, wailed. Everything I ever hoped for, all that I have ever needed was here in front of me but I was too blind I was too lost in things that didn’t mean anything that I lost sight of the blessing God had given me.
‘I am sorry Tobi’ that was all I could say. Maybe I needed this, maybe I needed to be broken for me to come to my senses.
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