Morning came and I felt whole, like I finally found my missing piece. Kola was a confirmation of God’s good plans for us. We were finally together and I knew my new relationship would be the talk of the town.
I had a feeling work would be hectic for me, I had a wedding and a birthday party to plan both happening the next month. I tried to hurry to work since I didn’t go to work the previous day. My fellow colleagues were waiting for me in the office.
‘Madam, why didn’t you show up yesterday? We heard you were sick’ Tricia asked. I could see the others laughing like they knew the truth and were waiting for me to confess.
‘You guys should mind your business. Excuse me, I have work to do’
‘Look’ she said handing me her phone.
I saw a picture of myself and Kola at the restaurant and the mall. These paparazzi won’t put someone into trouble, I can’t even lie and get away with it, it was a shame.
I had to laugh to cover it up. ‘Leave me alone I have work to do’ I said laughing some more. They all left except Tricia. She sat down comfortably staring at me.
‘Damilola you have to tell me about this boy. I won’t go until you tell me’
‘I honestly have work to do and you know it. Let’s talk another time’ I said hoping she would let the matter go and just let me be but it didn’t seem like she was going to leave me.
‘Well, you should trust me. I already ran a background check on him and I know he is pretty rich. You are very lucky. So where did you met him?’
I turned on my laptop and started working on the wedding profile, I already told her to go and I planned on ignoring her.
‘Dami…Dami…Dami…Dami…Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaami…Dami’ she kept calling my name in a bid to get me to get my attention but I kept ignoring her, hopefully she gets the signal and leaves me alone.
When she noticed I wasn’t going to answer her, she closed my laptop
‘So answer me where did you meet?’ she asked smiling.
I was too annoyed, she was a pain in the ass and I didn’t understand why she was so concerned, last I checked he was ‘my’ boyfriend not hers.
‘At a wedding’ I finally replied ‘Can you now leave me alone to work?’ she saw I was not interested in talking to her. Why would I be? Everyone knew she was the gossip of the office and I always avoided having her in my business.
She finally left and I felt bad at some point maybe I was too harsh on her. I would probably apologize later.
I had so much to do and so many errands to run. It was as if they were unending. When it was time for lunch I couldn’t go anywhere, I was choked up with work.
When I was able to see a head way, I laid my head to rest. I was trying to rest when Kola’s call came in; I have been busy all day I forgot to call him.
‘Hello love, how are you and how is work today?’ I was so relieved, it was as if the trouble of work was gone just by hearing his voice.
‘I am fine and work has been hectic. I wasn’t even able to go for lunch’ I replied
‘You don’t sound nice. Sorry baby. I want us to see today. Will you be free’
Free ke? Didn’t he just hear I have been busy, I needed to work today and nothing else.
‘Ehm, I don’t think it’s possible. I need to finish this profile today and I have a lot to do’ I said. I actually wanted to see him but I needed to set emy priorities right. I already took permission yesterday to see him; if I did that today again I would be in so much mess.
‘We could see after work. We need to talk’
Okay, when a guy says ‘we need to talk’ only one thing comes to mind a break up. Why were we breaking up a relationship of 1 day? What was this all about?
‘What do you mean by we need to talk, Kola? I was scared. I didn’t want to talk and we didn’t even need to talk. What was wrong now?
‘Yes dear and it can’t wait. I’ll come you pick by 6, please be ready’ he said and hung up.
I couldn’t concentrate anymore. The news was everywhere and suddenly we needed to talk. I didn’t have any secret that would jeopardize our relationship. What was wrong with me or him or was he thinking we are moving too fast? What could this be about?
I honestly didn’t want it to be 6 yet. I wanted to avoid talking, I just knew it wouldn’t end well and I was too in love to want to end it now. I called mum’s driver to pick up my car as Kola would be dropping me off. I couldn’t concentrate anymore. When Kola called to tell me he was downstairs I had to brace myself, I kept telling myself I would be fine even if I didn’t believe it.
By the time I got downstairs, I saw Tricia with Kola, I couldn’t tell if she was flirting or just trying to get to know him. Whatever it was I wasn’t comfortable with it and I wasn’t having it.
‘Tricia, met my boyfriend, Kola Williams’ I said. What I actually wanted to say was: 'Bitch he is mine. Can never be yours so back off' but that would be too petty.
I think her little brain got the message as she apologized and left us. Bye Tricia, I don’t hope to see you anytime soon.
We decided to go to a garden,’ it was the perfect place for us to talk’ Kola said. I wasn’t free, I wasn’t happy and I couldn’t be, I had too many things to think about.
‘What’s wrong with you, Dami?’ he asked ‘You haven’t been yourself. Is anything the matter? Is it Tricia? Honestly it was harmless I just felt she was being nice’
First of all it wasn’t Tricia, it was him. How would he say we needed to talk and then go all mute when it was time to talk? But if it was actually a break up he wouldn’t want to explain the Tricia drama to me.
‘I am fine. You said we needed to talk and I have been waiting for the talk’
‘Oh! Wow. I have been trying to avoid the talk. Can we have it later?
Have it later on? If that’s what he wanted he shouldn’t have told me ‘we need to talk’ when he did. We were going to talk and we were going to talk now.
‘Nope, we are talking now. I can’t wait any longer’ I responded
He took a deep breathe like what he was about to say was too heavy for him to say.
‘Dami, I would be traveling back tomorrow?’
It sounded like a joke, he was leaving me already? He didn’t even wait for us to get along and all he wanted was to leave? Maybe he actually wasn’t interested in Nigerian girls after all.
‘So you want to break up with me right? That’s what this is about right?’ I asked searching for answers. Why would he start a relationship only to end it the next day? Was I a toy to him or a girl with no feelings at all? I thought we were on the same page but sadly we weren’t.
‘It doesn’t need to be except you let it. I wanted to know if you would be okay with a long distance relationship’
Okay? He didn’t have an idea of how much I loved him and it was sickening. To even think that he was ready to abandon me and our love was even more sickening.
‘Take me home’ I didn’t want it anymore. I was done with the stress; if he wanted to go he was free to go. I was tired of the back and forth with guys and Kola was the last.
He tried to beg me but I wasn’t ready to listen to him. ‘Take me home’ I repeated. He had no choice but to do so. The drive home was very quiet and sad. I couldn’t believe that was the end. Goodbye Kola.
When I got home, I came down from the car without saying goodnight and running into the house.
I cried into my pillow screaming as much as I could. Was this finally the end? Was I going to lose the perfect person for me? I heard my phone ring but I was not in the mood to speak to anyone. Why do I always get punished for love? Maybe I was truly not made for love…Kola was gone.
When I felt I couldn’t cry anymore, I stood up to take my bath and have some sleep. I felt better in the bathroom, like I could hear my thoughts. I thought I was done crying but it hurt so badly. I couldn’t believe this.
When I could finally leave, I picked up my phone, seeing 24 missed calls and 10 messages from Kola; I couldn’t even bring myself to calling him back. How miserable would I be tomorrow? Why would he even dare to call or text me? I wasn’t going to call him, no, not this time. He didn’t deserve my love. I tried reading the messages, I could barely read the first line before tears trickled down my cheek as if to once again mock me for my stupidity and my obsession. How could he send this to me? I could barely read as the tears clouded my eyes. I was once again defeated by love.
TO BE CONT’D….
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