Just something

Have you ever been hurt, you feel your heart breaking? The way your heart aches, you feel your life is about to end, you cry your heart out, try to cry the pain out but the more you try the more pain you feel.


You close your eyes hoping it’s a dream and that you would wake up in another world or to reality?

Have you ever prayed and asked for something that you know is bad for you? Pray that you get it back because you never thought you will lose it? You gave your heart literally and all you had was your heart given to you in bits and pieces, practically thrown back at you and spat on.

You lost yourself trying to acquire it and all you do is blame yourself, hate yourself, and wish you could do things differently. How you don’t know what to call this hurt or this disappointment. How everything that sounds like trust and loves irritates. How everything that made you want to live forever or even hope for a brighter future turned out to be a lie? How you see the person that hurt you smile or even laugh and all you ask yourself is why they are still breathing?

How you could love and hate at the same time? You begin to think of life as something bitter or not worth while. Life feels like you are floating or like everyone is at the top of their game but you. How today you are strong and tomorrow you are broken and amidst tears.

This is just a reminder that no one is at the top of their game, no one knows what life is all about, and we all make plans. A friend of mine once said ‘it aint life if it goes your way’.

We’ve all made mistakes, being disappointed and hated ourselves at some point but we are beautiful. Every scar, every tear is to bring us closer to what we are supposed to be.

The truth is some of us would stay in bad situations, stay in harmful relationships because we are scared of letting go. Just let go and let God. Most things would never go your way, I doubt 80% of the plans we have for our lives would even be achieved but you learn to live each day one at a time, thinking, applying wisdom and understanding yourself and purpose.

You are strong, strong enough to move on, strong enough to let go. Nothing is permanent; everything in this human existence is temporary. The hardest thing in life is change but we must learn to accept it. You walk past someone that was once your sweetheart and you cannot comfortably say ‘hello’,

Sometimes you wish you could scream everything out, cry out and let everything out. Time heals all wounds. No one can live your life better than you. You are the perfect version of you.

Just letting it into the universe

That God girl.